Somethng tells me you've started doing the right things for yourself now--the healthy, healing things. Writing is surely part of that. It's also a service to others. You write good stuff. I hope you'll keep at it. I think it will help you will come back to life. Writing stuff down really helped me a while back. It also reduced the amount of time I spent with a therapist.
BTW, your instinct to use 'Jazprose' is right on. I plan to drop my birth name, eventually. Jazprose is how the search engines know me. And apparently, so do you. Thaks for being so prescient.